Reason Enough

I’m writing this blog while the song “Reason Enough” is playing over and over again…

Early this week,  my very good friend Leizl told me via YM chat that she’s gonna post something in Facebook and I should wait for it,  so I did.  It was a video link from Youtube, and this is what she posted on her wall:

“For my sisterette Tentee! Habang kinakanta ko yan ikaw agad naisip ko. Favorite nating kantahin sa videoke…hahahaha. Take note, bagay sa’yo lyrics… =)”

Hahahaha! One of my favorite songs, indeed! Yeah, I sing…I DO!!! (Walang kokontra!) I can actually sing this Regine Velasquez’s song! lol

Bagay daw sa akin ang lyrics….uhmmm…ok, let’s see why, here it goes… ;D

I don’t wanna be called just an ordinary girl,  I want to be different.  During my teenage years, when almost all of my classmates have their so called “puppy love”, I don’t have one!  And I don’t care!  My parents are not strict, they just trust me  so much that I don’t want to fail them.  So, I made a commitment to myself that I will never enter into any kind of romantic relationship until I finished college.  And I succeeded! That wasn’t that tough though (madali lang umiwas sa mga boys lalo na if you look suplada and you’re gonna act like one, hehehe…) Life is not really that complicated then, until I fell inlove…

Reason Enough by Regine Velasquez

I made myself a promise some time ago
Never again to give my heart away
Fell in love with someone who left me in the end
The price of love was just too high to pay

Nine years ago, when my first relationship ended,  I became so protective of myself.  I was so scared of falling inlove because I don’t want to experience the pain brought about by a failed relationship ever again.  Yep, I fell inlove and it almost cost my life.  It was a very traumatic, painful and life threatening experience for me.  So I ended up controlling my feelings and chose not to fall inlove even if people around me would tell otherwise.  It took me 3 long years before I was able to totally forgive the person who caused me so much pain and trauma.  It was a struggle…and I should say prayers really helped a lot.

I thought my life had ended, but you came along
And showed me how much brighter things could be

Then you came into my life…you caught me off guard!  I didn’t notice that I was beginning to fall for you.  You were able  to show  and made me feel how much brighter things could be.  But I was still holding back then…so aftraid of  taking the risk of falling inlove again.  Still remember the first letter that I sent you via e-mail?!?!  I could still vividly recall your reply on this…

Sent: Sunday, September 7, 2008 3:45:44 PM

i don’t actually know why am i writing this, just felt like doing so…

for the record, and this will be up close and personal. i just wanna let you know that i miss you… i’m not sure why, maybe because i’m getting used to talking to you everyday or perhaps i’m beginning to like you. i can’t deny the fact that you make me smile, you make me laugh and you never failed to let your sense of humor work on me kahit minsan nakakapikon. i also appreciate that you’re making an effort to chat, text and call me. there’s just one thing that’s bothering me… i don’t know if it’s my intuition or just a paranoia para isipin ko na hinanap mo lang talaga ako to get even….a sweet revenge maybe?!?! i want to believe that you’re a good person but i find it really hard to trust people… probably it’s because of the very traumatic experience i had in my first romantic relationship. i was close to being a man hater then, kung pwede lang sana na maging manhid na lang ako at walang maramdaman para di na ko masaktan, yun ang pipiliin ko but i don’t think that’s possible. so, please…don’t make me fall for you if in the end you’re just gonna break my heart coz i’m not sure if i can still stand another heartbreak…

i’m telling you these kasi ok na ko ngayon…i’m happy and i don’t want another nightmare in my life anymore. but if it has to happen again, i guess i just have to accept it…if it’s the price that i have to pay for taking a chance again…

Now you see I’ve turned my back
On that promise that I made
Knowing that your love has set me free

Finally, your love has set me free! I didn’t know I will be this happy again…despite all the heartaches and pain.

(`Cause) You are reason enough for me to go on living
You are reason enough for me to smile again
In a world where hearts are broken
Every now and then
One finds reason enough to love
Like I’ve found reason enough in you to love again

Everything happens for a reason and now that I’ve found the reason to love again,  I promise I won’t let go…for I know, that you keep holding on to us.  Looking back on the tough times that we had, all the hurts and pain, I’m still thankful because I have you.  You are one of most precious gifts that God has given me.  Thank you for making me smile…

Here I am, all caught up in this new found love
Feeling like I’ve never felt before
Putting my love on the line with you
Taking a chance again
I’m not afraid to love anymore

God is our anchor, there’s nothing I shall be afraid of.   I didn’t just find love, love found me…and we’ve found each other.  I’m taking a chance again with high hopes and prayers that it’ll be the love that’s worth fighting for…a love that will last a lifetime.

In a world where hearts are broken
Every now and then
One finds reason enough to love
Like I’ve reason enough in you to love again

With you,  I have found more than reason enough to love over and over again…

“There is no fear in love, but perfect love drives out fear.  Because fear has to do with punishment.  The one who fears is not made perfect in love. “— 1 John 4:18

To:  Bebe Ko