2005 - Year of the Rooster

I received this text message from a friend some time in January 2005. “Never fear the risk of getting hurt when you’re inlove…it’s only through pain that you can live a complete life! Love and get hurt, get hurt and learn, learn and love again…” My friend hit a point here and it struck me deep within.  If there’s one person who has so much love to give and yet so afraid of taking the risk of loving…it would definitely be me!  Once in my life, I took the risk and got hurt.  It was a very painful and traumatic experience but I managed to move on with my life.  It was never an easy task … Thanks be to God and to my friends who never left me when I was at the lowest point of my life.  I was able to endure the pain that love (and the person) has caused me.  I know, I’ve learned a lot from my past… I was able to move on… I was able to forgive and forget… but then, I became more scared of loving and getting hurt.  But if love will knock at my door again, I promised to take the risk no matter what it takes.  I know I might get hurt in the process but now, I have the strong conviction that it’s worth all the tears, pain and sacrifice.  Because I believe that “the one”  with whom I’m going to entrust my heart will be responsible enough to protect it like a most precious gem.  I remember a friend once told me, “if you can’t find him, he’ll be the one to find you.”  If this is so, then he’s really worth all the wait and sacrifice.  I wish that my friend is right… and I hope I won’t fail this time.

I wrote a lot  about this “the one” in 2005 and learned just recently (about a month ago) that this was the year when the one I have right now was experiencing pain brought about by a broken relationship.  And looking back, he did find me… I got hurt in the process… but I still believed that it’s really worth the tears, pain and sacrifice.  Isn’t it amazing?!?! Do I have the gift of writing my own love story  even before it actually happens?!?!  Wehehehe…just a thought!  Only God knows…#CAL